FREAK OUT or ... pray

peace the warrior

A few years ago I was reading a really good book, the kind of really good book that you read over and over again.
I came across a couple of paragraphs
       -- I'd read them before, in fact many befores --
but this time they stopped me in my tracks
Life-changing-words
    changed my life, or maybe it was my perception of my life and how to handle it
Let's just say it gave me options on how to work through this life that I've been gifted with

As I've made perfectly clear in my blog, I most certainly don't have it all together

     Sure my life is beautiful 

          It's even beautiful when it's not beautiful (stick with me here ...)

And  those times of  not so beautiful
 .... that's when those options kick in

Here .. let me paraphrase that "something" from that book 

Don't be anxious or freaked out about anything {at least not for too long}
   ~~~ don't leave me here, it gets better ~~~

Instead of melting down in all of those beautiful and not so beautiful moments
  try something new
Pray...
That's it ... really pray about the ugly, the scary, the unknown
And there's more
While you're at that Praying - Thank Him

        Thank God He's there for you,
        Thank God He knows you
  if all you can do is thank Him you're breathing...then
        Thank Him for breath
And that Praying ... really spell it out to God. He can handle it.
Tell Him what you need,
    tell Him what's wrong
        how screwed up it is
        how terrifying it is
        how absolutely impossible to is to understand what to do next
                 or live with what might come next
     the possibilities are freaking you out!!!
Don't over think it
   Don't over analyze it
Just give Him your order,
    Give Him your request
   ~~~ Told you it gets better ~~~
Then you know what happens next???
 ... while you're listening
   {prayer=conversation ... talking AND listening}
Peace...
{You do realize this whole praying, petitioning, thanking, begging is not usually a  five-minute Hail Mary moment - This is serious talking to God about serious stuff so slow down a bit - breathe - listen}
Peace...
Heart-soothing, blood-pressure calming
    sometimes slamming
    other times drizzling
        over your body - through your soul - Peace
This Peace - it won't make sense - it just doesn't make sense - not supposed to make sense
You won't understand this warrior
peace the warrior
   Protector of your Heart, the Guardian of your Soul
It will cover your very being, will keep your mind, your heart
Peace will shield you from despair,
   protect you from that beast called anxiety that is able to consume our very being.
Peace will guard your mind and your heart, in Jesus, the Christ

You're welcome ...




       

Pneumonia. I don't like you so go away...

Netflix bingeing

   boxes and boxes of Kleenex 

             and sleep

 throw in a little Hulu (ok - a lot)

      cup after cup of green tea

            and a few doctor's visits

That has been my life for the last 17 days

I know I'm not feeling well when I don't even want to bake.

I know I'm sick when I don't get up until 10 ... on a good day.

But today, I'm back to work.

I don't have much energy because pneumonia thinks it needs to hang out for awhile longer, despite the extremely large doses of antibiotics I took for 11 days.

But I'm back at a desk, with a foggy brain and a thermos full of green tea.

It happens to be a slow day here at work, before a very busy week ahead.

For that I am grateful.

My parents have offered to bring us dinner tonight

For that I am extremely grateful.

I'm the only one in my house that has pneumonia (I think) and I'm definitely thankful for that cause well, this just sucks!

So people,

   get your flu shot

   drink your tea

   take your vitamins

   wash your hands

and if none of that works then just grab your blanket, your vaporizer and your juice.

I promise not to tell anyone that you watched every episode of Seasons 1 and 2 of Gilmore Girls ... your secret's safe with me.